Thursday, August 8, 2013

Days like today...

Days like today remind me of Portland... Overcast, grey, cool...
There was a time when a day like today would put me in a mopey funk... depressed, lonely, anxious.

Anymore, though, grey days don't usually get me down.

It amazes me how much my life has changed (for the better) in the last year.  I'm off my depression meds, I have THREE jobs, a roof over my head, great friends, awesome pets, and I'm seeing the most wonderful man... He's really not like anyone else... nor is our relationship like any I've had before.  A little unorthodox, perhaps, but I was never much into following societal norms anyway.

It's funny... I sit down to write something poignant, and all I get is random thought-drivel.

Life is amazing once you learn to roll with it.  Best thing I ever did for myself was leaving it all behind and starting over.

You want to hear God laugh? Tell Him your plans!


Monday, May 20, 2013

Spring has sprung!

It felt like winter went on forever.... Snow, then sun, then snow, then sun.  We had our last snow in early May, much to my dismay, but this week, the trees all turned green, all at once, as they are wont to do around here.

At any rate, life goes on, and it has, to my great enjoyment!
A long winter of letting go of the past and looking forward to the future has brightened my spring more than I ever thought was possible.  A quick run-down of this winter's events:

Had a visitor in October, subsequently decided to pull that weed from my garden.  Haven't planted anything in the empty space yet, but it's tilled, mulched, and ready to go!

Got a cat... then a dog.

Dated a couple of guys, nothing to write home about, but good for a laugh.

Decided that my job at the donut shop wasn't what I wanted, so I took a 50% pay cut and got the hell out of there and away from my creepy boss.

Since my finances took a steep downhill turn, I had to get a roommate... in my 1 bedroom apartment.  He moved in April 1st, and I consider myself very lucky to have found a roomie on teh intarwebs that isn't smelly, messy, or WEIRD.  Thankfully, my apartment has a huge bedroom, so we were able to convert it into two separate sleeping areas.  We get along really well and have a lot in common.  When my lease is up in September, we're going to get a bigger place.  2 bedrooms would be nice!

Last month, I got the MOST AWESOME JOB EVAR!

I work at a wild bird rescue/rehab, and I spend my days feeding babies, tending to the sick and injured, and cleaning up bird poo.  I love it.  I wish it paid more so that I could survive on just one job, but my second job isn't bad, and I really like the people I work with.

Most mornings, I wake up and think "Hell, yes, this is my life, and it's fucking amazing!"

I've been losing weight and getting healthy, though I still haven't kicked my tobacco habit.  I should be under 2 bills when I go home for a visit on July 4th.  I might come back with red hair.  We'll see.

Dating is stupid.  Online dating even more so.  I have yet to meet someone who doesn't annoy me or piss me off, much less anyone with the ability to impress me.  It's always fun to find out the answer to "why is this guy single?"

Sometimes I miss being in love, being a partner, having someone to hold.  I suppose it will come in good time, when I'm ready for it... which I'm not.  I think.

Bah! to feelings!  Sometimes I feel like I'll never want to let anyone else in as far as I let my ex-wife.  Like I'll never give anyone that level of trust again.  Why would I want to?  I know there were a lot of good times in my last relationship, but I'll be damned if I can remember them, remember the way I felt when I was wholly and unequivocally in love with someone whom I trusted implicitly.

Ah right.  I'm supposed to be letting go of the past.

So I'm single, been single for a year... I'm still happier than I've ever been in my life!  And if all else fails, I'll always have my dog. :)