Physical therapy is kicking my... neck. Since I'm feeling pretty cruddy today, I thought I'd make a list of things I want to do someday. A bucket list?
Learn to play flamenco guitar.
Speak Spanish fluently. Again.
Learn to play the banjo.
Buy a sailboat.
Learn to sail.
Sail back to Dutch Harbor.
Sail south along the west coast, around Cape Horn, north along the eastern coast of South America, through the Panama Canal, and north along the west coast to home.
Get to my goal weight.
Learn to SCUBA dive.
To be continued...
Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dreams. Show all posts
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Monday, May 21, 2012
Epiphany
Now that I have some time to myself, I can expound my previous post.
Last night, I experienced a moment of clarity that was unlike anything I had ever felt. I felt as though, for a brief moment, I could see how perfect everything was, and like my previous post states, I tilted my head back and laughed at the sky. Well, the ceiling, but you get the point. For the first time, it was though all the fog cleared, and I could see IT for the first time. What exactly IT is, I don't think I can explain. Perhaps IT is my future, perhaps IT is my dream, or perhaps IT is my path.
The only way I can think to describe it is this:
Imagine you are driving to the coast for the first time in years. Academically, you know what it looks like - it's an ocean, but you can't quite remember what it actually looks like.
After driving in the rain for hours, you come to the place where you can see the ocean for the first time, peeking through the trees. A glimpse here, a glimpse there, but never quite enough. Then, all of a sudden, you drive around a bend, the rain stops, the sun begins to shine, and THERE IT IS. Glorious. Breathtaking in its magnificent simplicity. The very sight of it fills you with ecstatic joy and peace all at the same time.
The epiphany I had last night, if I were to compare it to an algebraic equation, wasn't a piercing moment of clarity regarding the solution, nor was it about the equation itself. It was X. The great unknown variable. It was so very simple, and it had been there all the time.
And I tilted my head back and laughed at the sky.
I get it now.
Life is good.
Last night, I experienced a moment of clarity that was unlike anything I had ever felt. I felt as though, for a brief moment, I could see how perfect everything was, and like my previous post states, I tilted my head back and laughed at the sky. Well, the ceiling, but you get the point. For the first time, it was though all the fog cleared, and I could see IT for the first time. What exactly IT is, I don't think I can explain. Perhaps IT is my future, perhaps IT is my dream, or perhaps IT is my path.
The only way I can think to describe it is this:
Imagine you are driving to the coast for the first time in years. Academically, you know what it looks like - it's an ocean, but you can't quite remember what it actually looks like.
After driving in the rain for hours, you come to the place where you can see the ocean for the first time, peeking through the trees. A glimpse here, a glimpse there, but never quite enough. Then, all of a sudden, you drive around a bend, the rain stops, the sun begins to shine, and THERE IT IS. Glorious. Breathtaking in its magnificent simplicity. The very sight of it fills you with ecstatic joy and peace all at the same time.
The epiphany I had last night, if I were to compare it to an algebraic equation, wasn't a piercing moment of clarity regarding the solution, nor was it about the equation itself. It was X. The great unknown variable. It was so very simple, and it had been there all the time.
And I tilted my head back and laughed at the sky.
I get it now.
Life is good.
Friday, May 18, 2012
Dreams
Lying on the couch, under the influence of vicodin (legally prescribed!) is the perfect time to ponder my dreams.
What would my ideal life look like?
Forget the influences of friends, family, society...
Throw away social norms, ignore imagined boundaries...
The life I've only dreamed of:
Simple
Free
Unfettered
Independent
Self-sufficient
Healthy
Travel
Explore
Learn
See
Do
Follow my insatiable thirst for knowledge and voracious appetite for adventure
Live a life less ordinary
Live simply, without so many attachments
More time doing things that mean something, less time watching tv
Be able to wake up and think "Hell yes, this is my life, and it's fucking amazing."
Buck the system, lose the 9 to 5
Eat well
Free from obligations
Answer to no one but myself
Be able to just enjoy being alive
How do I achieve this?
Get rid of almost everything - pare down to bare necessities, downsize what I keep
Get a different job - flexible, mobile, atypical
Fly solo - sever attachments and obligations
Live cheap - low rent, few or no extra services
Live my mantra - Do the crazy thing, the abnormal thing, the weird thing.
Be EXTRAORDINARY.
Sounds like a lot of work. Bring it on!
What would my ideal life look like?
Forget the influences of friends, family, society...
Throw away social norms, ignore imagined boundaries...
The life I've only dreamed of:
Simple
Free
Unfettered
Independent
Self-sufficient
Healthy
Travel
Explore
Learn
See
Do
Follow my insatiable thirst for knowledge and voracious appetite for adventure
Live a life less ordinary
Live simply, without so many attachments
More time doing things that mean something, less time watching tv
Be able to wake up and think "Hell yes, this is my life, and it's fucking amazing."
Buck the system, lose the 9 to 5
Eat well
Free from obligations
Answer to no one but myself
Be able to just enjoy being alive
How do I achieve this?
Get rid of almost everything - pare down to bare necessities, downsize what I keep
Get a different job - flexible, mobile, atypical
Fly solo - sever attachments and obligations
Live cheap - low rent, few or no extra services
Live my mantra - Do the crazy thing, the abnormal thing, the weird thing.
Be EXTRAORDINARY.
Sounds like a lot of work. Bring it on!
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